Sunday, April 10, 2011

I blabbed

Update to my crazy life:

I had my doctors appointment on Thursday with Dr. N. We saw a sac in the uterus, but we didn't see a heart beat (yet). Since we don't have a date to base anything on we are playing "milestone" game. I go back in on the 14th to have another ultrasound, hoping to see a heart beat then. I am pretty confident that all is good. Just in the last few days, my body is screaming PREGNANT. My 'milking containers' (this is me trying to be sensitive to those reading) are so sore and as my hubby puts it, huge. Morning sickness is worse in the mornings and evenings/night time.

I swear I have psycho fetus growing inside me. Food cravings to nausea in 2 secs. flat. Don't get me wrong I love the idea that I am having another baby, but I am still dealing with that fact.

Anyways, so, yeah, I am not hiding anymore. I have a baby growing inside me, and I can not wait to know more about this little bean. Like due date, gender, and who in the world am I going to use for a doc. Yeah that isn't the baby's fault there.

Well off to try to rest before Tator wakes up.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Ramblins of a crazy woman

I told myself I wouldnt post anything that I found out yesterday on Facebook or here, but aaaacckkkk, if I dont say something, I'm going to scream or bust or both! Well if you read my last post then you some what know what is going on. Yesterday I went back to Dr. Nemiro's for another ultrasound and a shot of progestrone in the tookus. I even took Tator Tot with me. After waiting for almost 30 mins (could of been longer), one of the techs called me back for my ultrasound and shot. When the tech stuck the probe up me (yeah TMI) BAM!!!! There was something on the screen. Me: Ummm, that wasnt there before. Tech: So you see that too? Me: Yeah, what is it? Tech: I have a few thoughts, when was your LMP? Me: January 22 Tech: Well then thats not it, too small. But you could of...... Me: Could of what???? Is that a sack? How thick is my lining? Tech: Could of ovulated late. Could be a sack, I dont see an heart beat, but I do see something inside. Oh your lining is so thick, at least 14mm and your uterus is larger than normal. Me: But 3 weeks ago we did an ultrasound and nothing and prior to that the HCG test came back negative!!!! Is this possible? Uhhh... are we sure... but look the sack is low, is that bad? Tech: It isnt impossible, and yeah with your previous HCG negative I'm confused too. Do you feel pregnant? Yeah the 'sack' is low but it might not be a sack but a popped blood vessel. Lets do another blood test to see what it is or isnt. I'm going to go ahead and give you the progestrone shot. Me: I've been feeling like I was pregnat since Febuary, but the test came back negative. Wait! If I am, will that hurt the baby? Tech: Nope, if you are then it is preserving the pregnacy, if your not then possibly the next few days you will have your cycle. Let me get our lab lady. Wait here. Me: Okay. (tech leaves and aaacckkk my brain wouldnt stop racing.) Yeah this is a dream. No way I could be, the test said so. But what if I am?? How far along? Maybe we are just seeing things on the ultrasound. Nay I'm not, I cant be, well I can be. Anyone can be if you have .. well you know. (I just kept on rambling to Tator.) That is the short version, or what I could remember. I was so shocked that my brain was out of commission. So they drew my blood around 12:30 and normally about 2 hours later I get the results. So when 2:30 arrived, i grabbed my phone and waited. Waited. WAited. WAITED! Hmm maybe since that about lunch time they need another hour. So I waited til 3:30, grabbed my phone again, and waited, waited, waited. AAACCKKK! Why wont they call. It must be negative, other wise they would of called because is it unusual. Dang what time do they close? 4:00? Its 3:51, I better call them. Brenda is on the phone with another paitent, can she call you back? Sure. Okay so now I know that its negative. Or other wise they would of made me hold on the phone. Waited, waited, waited, WAITED! 4: 57, hmm I better call them again. Sure hon, let me put you on hold. ....................................................... (this is hold) ........................ Dr: Hello Tonya, it's Dr. Nemiro. We got your test back, congrads your pregnant. Me: Umm, okay, wow, woah. Okay, so what are my HCG levels? (expecting to hear 7, 9, 15) Dr. 4600. Me: WHAT??!!?? 4600?? But... what... huh?? Dr: 4600. Me: But thats not little pregnant, thats alot pregnant. Are you sure? But a few weeks ago it was negative, ultrasound was negative.... Seriously Dr: Yeah that is puzzling, but yeah not little pregnant. I dont want to guess how far along are you. Please come back later this week for another ultrasound. And Congrads! And this is me since : @.@ :? :/ :) :( o.O No... ummm yeah... We are pregnant. But I dont know how far along, or when I'm due. Or if this is a viable pregnacy. But if you are reading this please dont say anything to anyone. At least not until I post it on Facebook. I go back in tomorrow for another ultrasound. There was a couple of questionable stuff on yesterday's ultrasound. But 4600 is a good number. And if you're wondering I did some research (internet research) 4600 is anywhere between 5-6 weeks, unless the questionables are multiables, but I'm not holding my breath anymore. For weeks now, everytime I would get sick, or my boobs hurt, or my nose played tricks on me, I've told myself that nope I am not pregnant. I have proof that Im not. The last few weeks I've belittle my body because I wouldnt bleed. I was so worried that I may have a bad thyroid or even thryroid cancer. The last few weeks I started wondering if I was starting the road to menapause. Now ...... I pray each time I go to the restroom that I dont see blood. Welcome to my world. Now remeber this is a scecret. I know LOL, if its a secret why post it on the internet. But I had to speak or I would go crazy.